Happy Birthday Babah. =)

i wonder how does it feels like having close relation with our grandparents. i mean our father/mother guardians, not including our grandparents siblings. not i never had that close relation between grandparents and grandchild. but both of my grandparents from my father and mother side had left this world before i was even born and when i was only in early age. me myself never had any memories of my grandparents nor a picture of me being carried by my grandparents , hug and others. i feel sad and sometimes i felt evy looking at other people pictures with their grand. sometimes i felt like my heart is heavy and a knife is stab at my heart being knowing i dont have my grand by myside. to share fun and love. happy and sad. story of his/her lifetime and mine. and what is more fuckup i didn't have a memorable memories to be remember of them. only visiting their graves and only their names craved on the tomb. and when i read 'yassin' at their graves, tears shed down not because of the big lost but because of, i didn't have a chance to meet them and share something special. for me family are not consist only our parents and siblings but also our grandparents. that is what i call a perfect family. and so i have lost my other half of my life =) without people notice my lost. behind my every smile, laugh and joke there is always something.

the white starlight envelops the tears
the tears fall in the warm wind
do you feel it?
this trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way

i draw you on this white paper
the warm smile holds me
is this love?
even when i close my eyes, i see only you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

i'm walking in my memories with you
the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
what should i do?
even in my dreams, i miss you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

please look at me, like the faraway stars
can't you be the one that's in my heart

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you



rawan hati ku eh. haha